August 3, 2023

Ideally, I am working for myself with the flexibility to work from anywhere.

I love collaborating with others, but I will admit that I’m a bit of a control freak and that can definitely get in the way.

I was surprised by how challenging I’ve been finding writing on this prompt, because for the longest time, my career ambition and my jobs were essential to my self worth and my self perception. I still think I’m a very ambitious person, but I’ve realized it has less to do with a job or a career than with the flexibility to always be creating and to explore my different interests.

Earlier in therapy, I was thinking about how my ADHD and my RA often feel in direct competition with each other. My ADHD wants me to go, go, go, always be doing, always be making. I’ve noticed that I’m much happier and more productive when I have many projects going simultaneously that I can productively procrastinate and switch between. Creating gives me a ton of dopamine. And my RA requires that I slow down.

Ultimately though, I think my ideal job requires that I have control over my own schedule so that I can more affectively accommodate how I’m most able to function.